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Well the trip home was nice. It was uneventful......except the part where I gave my email address to the attractive man I met in Denver. He was fun to chat with. We are going to dinner while I am in town. Lol!

Flights were delayed so I didn't even get in until after midnight. By the time Meg and I got to her place and went to bed it was after 1:30 in the morning. Which was 3:30 eastern. I was really tired. That is an understatement. I figured it was to late to check in at home so I went to bed. My mistake. It looks like my grandfather finally passed away last night. Between 1:30 and 2.

I am sad, but oddly content. I feel bad that I am not sobbing uncontrollably or something. Who wants to do that, I mean come on. But shouldn't I be feeling more then........content. I feel even worse......One of my origional thoughts was mom will be distracted and therefore this holiday could be enjoyable. Why do I always take things that happen and use them for my advantage. When written out it doesn't seem so bad. But it seems rather self centered to be thinking this.
Oh well, Mom has locked herself in her room. It is like a funky sort of remeberance. I have been here before. 8 years ago when Grandma died, this is how things started. It is only 1 in the afternoon and already I am back in the role of caretaker. It took me 8 years to get back to being on my own. Can I walk away this time? Should I? Uh oh....the kids are calling. We are to go Christmas shopping. But first I have to get them to eat Lunch.....Lol!